this is beauty.

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happiness

is just outside my window.

finally

i feel like i'm getting my life together.

i quit cigarettes today.
i'm incredibly turned off by them.
i'm quitting soda.
cutting back on red meat.

god almighty i don't know what i'm
going to do without mountain dew.

I could be fun, if you want.
I could be pensive, smart, superstitious, brave?
And I can be light on my feet.
I could be whatever you want.
You just tell me what you want and I can be that for you.

Ah Valentine's Day

What a boring day.
I laid in bed and listened to a suiting playlist.
Ate.
I've been listening to Secondhand Serenade all day.
Amen.
It'd be nice to have a valentine.
Buuuut life's not fair.

lets get some happiness, shiiit

while reading this blog i feel like there's too much negativity for my liking.

most likely because that's when i feel the need to get something out.

but antyways, on a good note:

• i had a killer time with brett tonight. writing horrid messages on people's car in the snow and doing what we do in the car.
• i love courtney. she's back for this weekend and i'm still ecstatic about that.
• we watched charlie's angels full throttle
• we went and saw dear john
• i walked through a mcdonalds drive thru with a group of people i didnt know because they wouldnt open the dining room. only for the lady at the window to tell us that they have a no walk up policy. which still makes no sense to me.
• it snowed :) and best believe i was playing in it
• i get to see the used in 9 days

and everything's going to be alright.

why do i fuck up anything that comes my way.

relationships. my life. you. me.

i've successfully fucked up yet another thing.

i don't understand why i can't just get it right.

i feel like i treat everyone justly and with respect.

i guess people don't want that.

i worry all the time that i can't properly get across what

i want to say.

and i guess i really can't.

i kinda liked you.

boats n hoes

i've been in an odd funk today.
i feel sick all the time.
i've almost puked twice today.

i mean literally gagged.

i'm so turned off of cigarettes.

my heart is disconnected from everyone.

except my room mate.
she's truly my best friend.

listen to me.

I got into a discussion with my room mate as to why she doesn't care about politics.

Me- "It's understandable why you wouldn't know anything about politics. It's never effected you. You've never had to pay taxes or worry about anything. But one day you will. I mean they're above you, regulating how you live your everyday life."

Courtney-"It's hard to explain what kind of person I am. I guess I'll say I only care about people and my relationships with them. Like Into the Wild, I just want to go through life and only care about the people I love. So I don't care about politics."

Me- "What if the government told you who you can love?"

Courtney- ".........yeah"